trying to be less self destructive...

jane austen

it is not healthy to watch too many movies,

especially when it comes to jane Austin.

i have just begun watching the new BBC version of emma,

its absolutely fantastic and fatal! what would life be like if i didn't have these ideas?

i honestly have no idea, perhaps i would be happier, or just as ridiculous who really knows,

in the end i think i'm happy i have her around.

apparently i am a control freak,

so much for being happy

so...

i am trying something new,

apparently its called sanity, we will see how long it lasts.

hahaha i love staying up late at night and pretending to be normal.

oh no

i have been getting kind of nervous, so i am trying to learn to be the kind of person who is not afraid.

patches of light

in one of anne lamott's books she talks about when we follow GOD we learn to step in to the spots of light he or she put in front of us.... and i am starting to learn this truth, i just look for the next bright spot in life and step into it... the funny thing is this is the most functional i have been in a long time. Learning to stop looking as far as i can see in a foggy world, and start looking for the brightness of GOD is the most freeing thing i have learned... in a long while

Here

tired,

excited,

sore throat,

unbelievably happy,

wonderful week,

can't imagine a better life,

know that GOD is good, and love

ready for life,

obedience